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READ & DOWNLOAD ß Up from the blue ↠ An extraordinary debut from a talented new voice Up from the Blue untangles the year in Tillie's life that changed everything 1975 the year her mother disappearedTillie Harris's life is in disarray—her husband is away on business the boxes in her new home aren't unpacked and the telephone isn't even connectSudden labor pains force Tillie to reach out to her estranged father for help a choice that means facing the painful memories she's been running from since she was a little girl. This is an exuisitely presented study of a very broken family who are uite literally hiding their secrets behind closed doors It is about children who are old enough to carry the shame but who reuire the sanctity of their parents love regardless It is about the slow breakdown of a woman a marriage and a family This is beautifully written and brilliantly constructed Told from the perspective of Tilly the seven year old daughter Up From the Blue surprises thoughout by showing sides of stories that you didn't expect Changing my opinion of characters and their motivations and ensuring I never got too sure of myself in my judgement of the characters This fabulous first novel succeeded in breaking my heart slowly piece by piece There are lines in this novel that will stay with me forever A story about the unconditional love of children and the damage that parents can inflict And most poignant of all the understanding that parents don't have to be perfect just present Susan Henderson will certainly be on the top of my wish list for future novels can't wait for

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An extraordinary debut from a talented new voice Up from the Blue untangles the year in Tillie's life that changed everything 1975 the year her mother disappearedTillie Harris's. Deep appreciation for all of you who've read my book or sent me notes about it I can't begin tell you what it means to me

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Up from the blueLife is in disarray her husband is away on business the boxes in her new home aren't unpacked and the telephone isn't even connected yet Though she's not due for another month. If you are a parent a child with a parent suffering from depression or a parent going through depression yourself this is a MUST READ I was immediately gripped during the beginning chapters where Tillie begins labor Because I've been there I could instantly connect with her but anyone who hasn't given birth would feel the frantic feelings described in the beginning And then it takes you back to Tillie's childhood You get to see the inner workings of a troubled military family Phil the older son who does no wrong because he wants to be the best soldier he can be Colonel Harris a high ranking military official who runs a strict household Mara the mother who is so obviously depressed and on the brink of implosion incapable of mothering the two children and the subject of whispers amongst the perfect military wivesmothers And then Tillie an unruly yet lovable eight year old girl Tillie adores her mother she can see the good in her unlike everyone else and defends her mom She senses she's likely a disappointment to her father and her brother can't be bothered with her Yet she feels like her mother is hers alone and you can really relate to her feelings for her mom Because as children we've all been there No matter what a mothers or fathers faults are it doesn't matter because you are in love with them They are perfect to you if to nobody elseThe greatness of this story as that even though it's a novel you feel like it's real You are hoping that the mother can just pull herself together and be the mom she wanted to be You are hoping that the father could just see that there is something medically wrong with her and that it isn't her fault she truly isn't capable of pulling it together on her own And then you feel this immense sadness for the children who don't understand and you just want to assure them that no matter what their parents love themNow you know I always try to read a story and bring some of my own life experience to it and this one was no different For years since Olivia was born I have struggled with depression I have felt so awful that I thought I'd be better off dying and I thought everyone else would be better without me I've been so happy that I look at those times and wonder what the hell was I thinking But most days I'm not in the middle I'm sad a lot and sometimes when driving alone I wonder what it would be like to just keep driving and never come back To just start up new somewhereanywherebecause I can't bear the feeling that I am a terrible mother a terrible wife a terrible friend a terrible daughter etc I may not be any of these things but a lot of days I feel this way And while I can take all the medication I want I know that's the only thing keeping me from dangling too far down So I could sympathize with Mara through the whole book She wants to be everything to everyone she wants to be a good wife and mother but she just isn't able But she loves her children anyways And every attempt she makes to do better it was always for them So no lie I cried when reading this and found myself nodding and saying Yes that's really how it is There is a part in the book where Mara tells Tillie I'm trying I'm trying for you ok and that Just made me so sad because I remember saying this to Olivia when she was just a week old I was alone at home with her and she never stopped crying I would rock crying myself and tell her I was trying just for herI highly reco